Posts tagged: personal
Lately, I realized I’ve become more critical or commentative with some videos that aren’t really supposed to be professional to begin with. Like some small details either bug me or just feels “nasayangan” because of that small mistake, it ruins the whole composition. Is it because of my current work? And is it a good or a bad thing? And do I have the right to be critical when I don’t have the skills yet to outmatch them.. #pondering
It’s been quite a while since I had a ponder post. Been pretty much busy with work these days (on the plus side, work is enjoyable) as well as other projects I’ve been planning and praying. One of them of course is regarding my blog/freelance/personal website.
Been wondering if I should make another tumblr blog for my works this time. Sort of a “casual than profesional” website for doing free lance stuff. Or if I should go for wordpress for it. I think it’ll be much more flexible css than here… though I could be wrong. Also have to learn css.
On the blogging side, I have some posts in my head I’d like to share on my current wordpress.. though haven’t the time to type them. (should probably write those ideas down before i lose them).
Oh so many many things to do~
Was reading my quiet time and ended up with Elijah in 1 Kings. Most of us know Elijah as the prophet who outmatched the 450 prophets of Baal whom king Ahab worshiped.
It was epic. The prophets shouting and dancing for Baal to take their bull offering but failed, while Elijah, setting up an altar with the bull offering, and to make it seem like a handicap for the prophets, he asked it to be poured with four jars of water for three times, but with just a simple prayer… BOOM! 38Then the fire of the Lord fell and burned the sacrifice, the wood, the stones and the soil, and also licked up the water in the trench. (1 kings 18:38) The prophets were seized and slaughtered and king Ahab was fleeing away. And may I add my favorite part of this story that I missed - 46The power of the Lord came upon Elijah and, tucking his cloak into his belt, he ran ahead of Ahab (who was riding a chariot btw) all the way to Jezreel. AWESOME.
It was victory. By that time, I could imagine Elijah filled with confidence and pretty high. But suddenly, it goes into a nosedive when Jezebel (Ahab’s wife) threatens Elijah’s life. 3Elijah was afraid and ran for his life.. (1 kings 19:3) But even when he ran, he still relied on the Lord. He admitted he wanted to give up. He lifted up his worries. And the Lord comforted him 7….”Get up and eat, for the journey is too great for you…” and gave him instructionsand Elijah obeyed.
There would be times in my life, that I’m so high for the Lord, or He has blessed me miracles and victories and with that, gives me total and utmost confidence. But once in a while it can be easily fractured by something. An accident; bad news or something very traumatic. And it just confuses me and sometimes, fear tries to strangle me in the throat. And there would be two responses I would choose. To give in to my fears and fall apart, or take it to the Lord. I admit some of these situations, I would end up losing hope. But the Lord still comforts me and eventually I would be healed and my confidence would be restored.
I guess what I’m trying to say here is that when we’re at our highest and suddenly we get into battles that seem too be great for us. God will be there to catch our fall and guide us if we continue to rely not lose hope in Him.
Dear me,
Where are you going in your life again?
From me
To be straight to the point; It was not what I had expected. Though I guess it these things never can be “expected”. I thought to myself this year would be “my year” since it was the year of the rabbit in the chinese zodiac (which was my year). Of course I was only humoring myself with the idea.
I did yearn though, for it to be one of the best years of my life. And true enough, it was mostly well. I’ve been blessed with new found friends, a new job, new responsibilities to serve in ministries and grew in spirit through books.
There was happiness, and joy; and I was falling for someone. However, it was not without great pain, anguish, sorrow, and struggles. There were even times that those wounds and heart aches ate me up to the point of the thought of not standing up again. However it was not the Lord’s plan to let those things happen just to destroy, but to strengthen (Jeremiah 29:11). And so it was. Realizations occurred, and those pains reinforced me to be stronger, to not take things seriously, to check up on my emotions, to keep going, to remember the mission I was given; To live.
Yes, things did not go as they were planned. The last stretch wasn’t the best, love life is, well, on hold (err), relationships were stressed, expectations almost ruined me and I just feel like I’ve taken to many arrows on the knee-er-chest. But the Lord knows what’s best for me (Proverbs 3:5-6) and His best outweighs mine. And I have accepted those wounds to be lessons to grow and as part of training as a cowboy-slash-turning-warrior. And I hope with this, I will be ready with 2012.
And so may the adventure continue.
Actually, a better question would be, why the heck do I overthink these things.
Sigh, sad story of my life..
*slap-slap* self-control man SELF-CONTROL
While waiting for ios5 to finish. Realized/Notcied something in fb.
Now pretty much in paranoid mode.
Its gonna be a long night..
First meal of the day. Totally “healthy” lol.
GPOY
Sorry, can’t help myself. THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL!~
